I hope you are having a great month so far!
The day I am actually writing this newsletter is on September 11th, the 15 year anniversary of the attacks on the World Trade Center. I have read many posts from friends who were there or lost a loved one and my heart aches with and for them. I am thinking of you.
That day changed the direction of my life…as I know it did for many. That day was the day I woke up.
Watching that tragedy unfold, I cried and cried and cried. I cried for all of humanity. I cried for those who are full of hatred and choose violence, I cried for those who lost their lives, for those who lost a loved one, for the disharmony that exists on our planet. I was so heartbroken for people I had never met, but I felt such a deep love for them. I grieved with them and for them. I wanted to comfort them. I wanted to be comforted. Yet, as I looked around my life wanting so greatly to connect, I realized I had only a couple of people in my life with whom I felt safe to connect, safe to be me, safe to be vulnerable, safe to love, safe to share in the sadness of that day. That realization woke me up.
Up until that point, I had been living the life of someone else, according to who other people thought I was or should be. Of course it makes sense that I found myself surrounded by people I didn’t trust or feel safe with. I had been on people pleasing auto pilot for most of my life. I woke up from the haze of living a life I did not love surrounded by people I did not feel safe with and decided to change the direction I was heading. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that even if I only made it one day in the direction of my dreams that it would be worth it. To know that I was choosing my life according to my rules, to my desires, trumped all my fears. That day, I decided to start following my heart. No matter what.
I moved to LA and hit the reset button on my life. I walked away from all that didn’t feel true to my heart and slowly started walking towards the life I had been dreaming of for almost 3 decades. It was not easy, in fact, some of my hardest challenges were yet to come. But the yoga I had been doing for 7 years prepared me with clarity, strength, flexibility, focus, perseverance, compassion and the ability to overcome obstacles. Every obstacle, no matter how daunting, was a welcome relief over living a life that never felt like my own. And now, here we are 15 years later.
Nothing in life is guaranteed. Today is all we have. Now is the moment. Don’t worry about what other people think. Follow your heart. Be the creator of your own life. The world is waiting for you.
Please be sure and check out all the great workshops and events we have coming up here. I hope to see you around the studio when I am in town next week.
With infinite love and gratitude…